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The Ambages – How a Fictional Family Became the Cornerstone of My Mind

Ambage: noun - an archaic term for intentional ambiguity or indirect ways or proceedings (usually presented as the plural "ambages"; Middle English via French and Latin) Intentional ambiguity is not a literary device that most writers would seek to employ, but if we're going to talk about the secondary definition regarding "indirect ways" then it… Continue reading The Ambages – How a Fictional Family Became the Cornerstone of My Mind

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An Existential Crisis – Part II: Religion

I struggle with matters of faith. Faith, by its definition, requires a component beyond verification and my mind simply does not work that way. One of my biggest questions with respect to religious faith has always been the gateway - how does one become religious? The question is quasi-facetious and rhetorical. The answer often is… Continue reading An Existential Crisis – Part II: Religion

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Sure, Sex Is Great (Unless You Have Social Anxiety and a Touch Aversion)

Yesterday was a "sexy" day. It came up as a topic of conversation among friends, and then I continued reading "The Shadow of the Wind" and its charming sex scenes. I have a strange relationship with sex. The topic does not bother me because I think it's perfectly natural and healthy. If anything, society does… Continue reading Sure, Sex Is Great (Unless You Have Social Anxiety and a Touch Aversion)

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Medical Anxiety, Social Anxiety, and OCPD – Going to a Doctor When You Hate Medical Offices

TW: Brief discussion of a graphic injury Every time I sit down with a new medical professional, they will invariably ask how things are with me and I will struggle with a concise answer. Physically I am a picture of health. They take their vitals, and everything will look perfect. Mental health is another story… Continue reading Medical Anxiety, Social Anxiety, and OCPD – Going to a Doctor When You Hate Medical Offices

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One Death: How One Event Shaped My Anxiety and OCPD

TW: death I feel like I learned the truth about death far too late in life, a combination of natural insulation from the subject and a consequence of my social anxiety. I cannot remember the exact age, maybe eight, but I was watching television in my living room while my mother ironed clothes. A life… Continue reading One Death: How One Event Shaped My Anxiety and OCPD

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Social Anxiety and Animals (Especially Those We Call Humans)

I cannot stress this enough, not only on my behalf but also in the interest of all who share these descriptions. Those with social anxiety are anxious in social situations. Introverts lose energy in social situations. Neither of those things is misanthropy. It's quite possible to love people and see good in them while having… Continue reading Social Anxiety and Animals (Especially Those We Call Humans)